Ultrasound and Bloodwork #1

The doctor said these words: "Lots of eggs! You are doing, really, really, really, really well." And then we bumped fists.

:)

More later!

UPDATE: My nurse said that they measured four follicles that are about 5-6mm right now, but I had a bunch of little ones as well that should grow. I'm still waiting for my blood work results. Today, I had to get stuck twice. One draw at the doctor's office, the other at LabCorp for my pre-surgery draw. That's still a week away, so don't get all excited just yet. ANOTHER UPDATE: Blood results are in. My E2 only rose up to 164. Ideally, it's supposed to double everyday, and it obviously did not do this. So, my doctor wants me to up my Gonal-F from 187.5 to 225, and keep my Menopur at the same dosage. I'll go back in on Saturday for more bloodwork, and another ultrasound, and hopefully my e2 will have risen by then.

Video Log: Medicines and Calendar

Excuse how I look. It's 8 in the morning and my webcam sucks! :)

Video Blog: What I do every night at 7pm

This video is sideways because my droid, although I am recording with the phone vertical, likes to process the video as being horizontal. Stupid phone.

Anyway, this is what I go through every night at 7pm. Soon, I'll start giving myself a shot in the morning too. That's three shots a day for up to fourteen days. Fun stuff, right?

Enjoy!

Day 3 bloodwork results

My E2 was 129, which is good! I am going to stay on my current dosages and go back on Thursday for an ultrasound and bloodwork. I'm excited to see what is going on in there! Grow, eggies, grow!

Numbing Fear

I had to get this out of my head and onto paper, so to speak.

Deep down inside, I am terrified of this cycle failing. I have all the hope in the world that it won't, but I am beside-myself-scared that it will. I just keep thinking about how I am going through all of this all over again, and how nothing has worked before -- so why would it work now?

And then I yell at myself for thinking this way. And I wonder if it would be best to just pour myself into this round of IVF and really, truly believe it is going to work. But then I get afraid again, because if I make myself believe it will work, and it doesn't end up working, then I will be as crushed as ever.

I don't know what I should do. Cautiously optimistic makes me scared too. I just don't want my heart to be broken again.

So far, this is not fun.

This is only my second day of stims. I am doing 187.5 iu of Gonal F, and 75 iu of Menopur. So far? It has sucked. Yesterday was my first night giving myself the shots, and an hour later, I had severe cramping, and then developed a headache. Then, my anxiety level went through the roof, and I ended up crying myself to sleep.

 All of today, I've felt sick. I've had a constant headache since the morning, and extreme fatigue. I went home from work a little early so I could sleep it off, but I was woken up from my nap. My anxiety level is still really high, but not as bad as it was yesterday.

I have my bloodwork appointment tomorrow. Hopefully, they will maybe tell me I can lower the doses some, since this is torture already, and I still have 10+ days to go. I am so terribly irritable, and I don't want it to affect my life or my job.

Ugh. I'll update tomorrow with blood test results!

Day 1: Appointment

Today I had my appointment with a doctor at the clinic. She went over how this protocol is going to go, and gave me my schedule of doom. My ultrasound checked out great. I have no cysts. Before the birth control, my AFC was (at least) 42. This time, it was (at least) 48. 48!!!!! And she said that was probably being modest. She's expecting we'll get more eggs this time based off that alone, but we will see. Anything can happen, as we saw my last two attempts.

She said we are going to be more aggressive this time around, and because I'm not on a lupron protocol, we should be able to get more eggs than last time. She suspects I was being over-suppressed my last attempt, and that is why I didn't get a lot of eggs. Hopefully, without the lupron, it will go better this time around. She also mentioned that because I have such a high AFC, that I should respond well to the stims. In fact, I should have responded well to a low dose, and now we will be using higher doses.

Again, I am feeling much more hopeful. Especially because my AFC looks great compared to what FCM said I had my previous cycle (they claimed I only had 10, but my doctor thinks they might count a different way than SGF does).

Oh, and sadly, FCM continued to play run-around games with B and I when it came to getting paperwork/files from them. So, B went into the office today and got the papers from them himself, since they keep claiming (and who knows, it might be true) that they sent us the files in the mail...twice...and they never got to us.  Whatevs!

I'll get my bloodwork results in tomorrow, and I'll start my stims on Sunday if all still looks good. :) Here goes nothing!