Here's Your Update, Jamie

My sister has been bothering me about an update. So, here it is.

Nothing has been going on.

Yep! I've not really been having any symptoms besides my right wrist hurting, which others are telling me that it is a sign. Or rather, that round-ligament pain is a sign. If it keeps hurting today, I might go out and buy a brace for it, since it's getting rather annoying.

I promised myself I wouldn't test...and then I tested. Yesterday, I had a faint line, but today, I didn't see anything. So, it was probably my trigger playing games with my head again. I won't be testing again until 10 DPO (I'm 7DPO today).

I've also realized that some of the girls on fertility friend really hate when other people get what could be an early BFP. They become rude and ornery. So, I won't be posting any more pictures on that website until I know I have a BFP and can tell them all to shove it.

Oh...maybe I'm a little more moody as well. Can you pick that up from this post?

IUI Part III

The IUI is over. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I had already ovulated before I got there (which sucks), but the doctor said one egg didn't release yet and would probably release sometime today. So, I have two eggs that released yesterday and one today. Great.

This shouldn't be too much of an issue because Brandon and I covered our butts the day before (or uncovered them -- haha), but it's still not ideal to have ovulated before the IUI. Brandon's numbers sucked this time too, with a count of only 5 million. But, it only takes one, right?

My mother-in-law's friend's daughter, Candice, is pregnant, and she did the sweetest thing for me. She took one of her daughter's baby blankets and has been sleeping with it. Then, she folded it up and gave it to me for me to sleep with so the pregnancy pheromones will rub off on me. <3 I'll do anything at this point. Even sleep with someone else's blanket.

If all goes well, in two weeks, I'll know if this has worked or not. I'm going to take it easy and hang in there. I really, really, really hope it works.

Almost 4am and I can't Sleep

Probably has to do with the fact that I went to bed at 8:30. And that had to do with the fact that I'm reacting much differently to my trigger shot than I did the first two times. I'm so much more crampy and tired and moody.

My ultrasound went well yesterday. My four follicles somehow downsized into three follicles, but that's fine with me. They gave me my shot yesterday, and today Brandon goes in at 8:30 am, and I go in at 11am to get the IUI done.

It's going to be another long two weeks.

Ultrasound

The doctor wasn't very vocal today about the ultrasound, but she did say there were FOUR good follicles, three on the right and one on the left. They are all between 15 and 18mms. I will go back on Saturday for another ultrasound and then go in Sunday for the IUI.

Four! Squeeeeeeeee.

T-Minus 2 Days

I'm nervous about this IUI cycle. I've been much more anxious about it, though I'm trying really hard not to be. I guess the prospect of failure is just too much for me to handle...and I don't know what I'll do/how I'll react if it really does fail.

Tomorrow is my ultrasound. For some reason, I have a feeling I'm going to have too many follicles and they are going to cancel. I really hope not. I hope I have the same sort of situation I had last month, since that was ideal -- I just suck at getting pregnant under ideal conditions.

If all goes well, my IUI will happen on Friday. If it goes as planned, I've decided to take Friday off so I can relax afterward and not stress out. I'm going to go home, lie down and take a nap for a few hours so I'm not active and up and about. Maybe that will help my little swimmers get to where they are supposed to go...

Off Grid

It's been a little while since I've posted, mostly because I've been crushed by this past IUI not working, and it has me pretty down. I just needed to disconnect from people and digest what this means next.

My appointment is on Thursday, and my third IUI is probably going to be the next day. Then it is back to the two week wait. This time, though, I'm not going to test at all until 14 DPO. I rather be heartbroken once, than over and over again.

Of course, I say this knowing that I won't have the willpower to wait. :)

I could use your prayers and positive thoughts, though. This whole process is wearing me down. I need the fortitude to keep my head up.

No Baby

I went to the doctor yesterday to get a repeat chest xray done to see if my pneumonia had cleared up. Of course, they want to make sure I'm not pregnant first, so I had a blood draw done. Turns out, I'm not pregnant, and our second IUI has failed.

I am waiting now for my period so I can call up and see what our next step will be. Probably another IUI. I don't know if they'll want to do anything differently, though. There's not much more to do at this point.

I'm pretty devastated. None of this is fair.

15 DPO - Temp Drop

Well, my temperature went down today, and though it's still above the cover line, it's also a sign that my cycle is probably coming to an end soon.

I did, however, take another test this morning, and again, I keep getting the faintest lines. I've decided that if I don't get my period by Sunday, that I'll go in for bloodwork on Monday.

Here are the pictures from today:

Nothing Still

There's really nothing to update about. Tests came up blank today. Not even a hint of a line. I'm pretty sure this cycle was a bust. Again.

I'm very down about it, so if you don't see updates in awhile, that's probably why.

11 or 12 DPO

Here are my SMU (second morning urine) tests from today. Something is there. I hope. I would love a normal line, though. Can I please get that?







And the top one on this series is today's test (just to line it up with a line):

:(

I am no longer feeling optimistic.

Looks like we're probably going to move into round three of IUI. No positive pregnancy test, and by now, I should probably have one. :(

I hate this. It's all very unfair.

10 DPO and Nothing

The title pretty much says it all. And I know it's early, but there's still a sinking feeling that I have that this didn't work.

Here are the pictures from today:

8 DPO...and what is this?

I am 8 DPO and 10 DPT today. The nurse said there should be no reason why I'd still have the trigger in my system at 10 DPT. So, with that said, I got this on my PM test:






This is me, trying not to get excited...